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Tuesday, October 04, 2011

Wow, like Hi after so long

Hello ransompaid@xanga, hahaha, you're far too old. Anyway I think it's good that you should know that I'm now in NUS, trying to climb this slippery slope of math formulas (and proofs) and sociology jargon. Rawr. I'm enjoying bahasa indonesia though (: (:

As if MI wasn't enough, we now have strong PMI, which makes the proof even more rigorous. Yay for people taking MA1100. For now, I'll need to focus on Soci ): It feels like I'm taking Lit all over again. All the theories and all, I think there's no right or wrong, it's just how deep you go.

And at my level, my analysis is so superficial I don't know what to do ): ): Sigh, God please help me!

I think my brain is engineered for Science. Like really, I think being in this "I have to take an ARTS module save me" position actually helps me understand my students' plight better. Especially those who are in the opposite position from me. Good at arts but weak at Science.

WHICH IS WHY WE ALL COME TOGETHER AND PUT OUR STRENGTHS TOGETHER.

Hmm, this actually makes me question Singapore's brand of "holistic" education.. Does it really work out? I mean, wouldn't it make more sense to focus on what we're stronger at? Hahah, we'll see and observe more la..

My mum just screamed at me and broke my train of thought. So I have no idea what else to type. Till then, see ya (:

I miss swimming and water polo (: Helped me to get my mind off things, now wanna swim also need to study. I quote a senior, "If you study hard, you're just an average in University."

So what does it take to be spectacular? My gosh. So stressful. :/ Life ain't gonna get any better, it's so sad thinking about it. So I look up to find hope, seems like that's the only way :D


Saturday, February 05, 2011

No one is to dominate conversations.

Y’know, you have to think less for yourself. Have you ever experienced trying to tell someone about yourself, and then the other party just keeps going on and on about what she/he’s going through? It always happens, always happens. That’s why it always seems that we’ve got nothing to talk about, because you’ve already said your piece when I was trying to say mine. Like wow, thanks for silencing me. So much for two way communication.

On my part, I’m guilty sometimes for doing that, but upon reflection and Kim’s message which told me not to be so self-centered, I think I made a big improvement. Evaluation much? (:

My main point being, don’t be so eager to talk about yourself. Just cos we’re friends, it doesn’t mean my world revolves around you. Try listening to what others have to say, mai kei kiang. You'll never know what you can learn by listening.

If you really don't know whether you're like that, try this.. Reflect on your past conversations with friends, have they always been about you? Were you always the one dominating the conversations? Notice your friends' reactions.. Were they trying to say something before you cut in, that which caused them to stop talking totally? Oh well.

I think many of us tend to forget listening is part of communication skills as well. Seems like I was better at talking, now I think I wanna be much better at listening instead [:


Sunday, January 09, 2011

I think beyond this world

There are two worlds waiting for us - heaven, hell.

And it scares me sometimes, people just don’t make the choice on time. There’s only one way, Jesus. And y’know, it’s just not the same. It’s not the same when you know someone’s leaving and they’ve yet to make the choice. What can I do to make the difference? Everyday I tell myself, as we’re living we’re dying. We’re dying, and that means lesser time. And between the day we are born and the day we die (two days which we have no control over, btw), there’s one day which will make the difference.

One day to accept Jesus into your life, and one day to make the change from hell to heaven. Don’t leave it till the last days of your life.


Saturday, January 01, 2011

so goodbye 2010, you’ve been a pretty good year

and why do I say that despite all the crap I’ve gone through, because I have God, and God is good :D

I think the first person to thank would be God, who brought me through everything. I think without Him, I would have died. Without Him, all my disappointments would have eaten me up alive, and without Him, I’d have no purpose in life. And of course without Him, I wouldn’t have acheieved so much - from school achievements to personal achievements - I really wouldn’t have. To be honest, God, thank You for teaching me so much - like how I can always lean on You, You’re definitely to most reliable support ever, and I know You’ll always be. Thank You for just being there for me even though so many time I choose not to seek You first. You simply wait for me to turn my eyes back on You, You’re truly the best father ever.

Next in line would be family. I think my family are the people whom I have taken for granted. Even during my O-level year, it was like that. I’ll never forget the late nights where I stayed up to mug, and Dad/Mum would come into my room to just put their hand on my back to comfort me. Or simply understanding me - allowing me to sleep with the lights on (cos I end up falling asleep on the table) or waking me up to make me move to the bed. These are just the few things I can never tell you face to face. But thank You, Mum and Dad. As for my brothers - thanks for being retards and sources of laughter - you guys really helped me destress. I know I get irritated when all of you crash my room - but I really hope it can happen again, it makes me feel so warm and fuzzy inside. HAHAH :D

Next, swim/water polo. What more can I say right. THE CRAZIEST TEAM EVER IN THE ENTIRE WORLD, I LOVE YOU GUYS TTM!!! :D Without swimming, there’d have been no water polo. And without swimming I wouldn’t have gotten a taste of what TK boys are truly like. (Thank God for this preparation or I wouldn’t know what I’d be facing in my internship, heheh) And without swimming, I wouldn’t have met so many people, so many seniors [: Swimming shouldn’t go, and I know it will not go. I pray it would not go, and I pray that Mr Loh’s eyes will be open to see the importance of the swim team family.

Y’know for the PSC essay, one of the questions they asked was “What is one event in your life that changed you as a person?” As I was running and thinking about it - only two words came into my mind - Water Polo. Even though I can’t say I have passion for the sport, I have passion for the people. Cos you guys are simply too awesome, too awesome to be disappointed. I miss the times where WP took precedence over almost everything - studies, lessons. hahaha. I truly felt like an athlete then, and thank you guys for allowing me to feel that way.

Yes, there were disappointments I faced, there were regrets, but I’m glad we are all letting go of them. In fact, I’ve already let go of mine lah, and K, I’m glad we’re back to where we are - being able to confide in each other. And just as much as you don’t want to lose me, I don’t want to lose you either. You’re really impt to me [: And I really really really hope you will find your purpose in life and the reason why you’re here. I really hope you’ll just open your heart to experiences which can bring you abundance and security :D Don’t let your disappointments help to build your wall of defence even higher, cos you’re not being fair to yourself [: You deserve to be fair to yourself lah [:

Next, churchies.

BATAM PEEPS - Batam opened my eyes to so much and humbled me. I’m really glad we bonded together as a team! :D And I hope this connection can stay forever! Looking forward to 6th Jan man! :D :D I think without Batam, I’d have stereotypes stuck in my mind, I wouldn’t have taken the first step to talk to people, so thank You God for blessing me with this Batam team and giving me the chance to connect back with the church people.

COMPANY - GOD IS BOSS. Okay maybe after this I will design the shirt. Eggciting. Company consists of TASH, GEN, BANA, MYSELF, KENNETH, SHAO KIAT, SEAN. I’m glad we’re sticking together. God used company to bring bana and ken closer to me, especially when it’s an impt year for all of us. Thank you all of you, for being so open to me, for being so willing to share your expereinces whatsoever with me. These are really the things I will keep close to my heart. Thank you gen for being so inclusive and making me feel like this company is more than a working place, it’s a family. A family I can turn to no matter what.

Besides Batam and company - I have other friends in church as well, like SSG, and all that. Thank you for supporting me this year, thank you for prayers.

Guys, lets make 2011 more than just a year of new beginnings - it will be a year of hope, because God called us all to be hope-bearers!

In TJ, God have also brought me friends in class I can lean on. Thank you to all of you, really, [: You guys have made my run to complete the A’s so much less tiring - because it was filled with laughter! Thank you guys for being so helpful and awesome. And for tolerating all my nonsense, kekeke~

Oh, and also, thank you to all my teachers, who have inspired me to want to become like you all, thank you for sharing your experiences with me. I really appreciate all of you, all of you who have made a difference in my life. Thank God for y’all!

Why do we sometimes wait till the new year to make things right? We don't have to! Do whatever you need to there and then, don't need to procrastinate when it comes to making things right! :D


Thursday, December 23, 2010

15 different types of love

Infatuation: loving feelings towards a love object that are largely based upon fantasy and idealization (instead of experience). Often when partners get to know each other, infatuation diminishes.

Romantic Love: An abiding love for a partner with whom you feel passion, attraction, caring and respect.

Eros: a passionate love usually involving sexual feelings for a love interest.

Companionate Love: feelings of warmth towards a friend with whom you love to spend time with.

Unconditional Love: A type of affection and caring that is so strong that you feel it consistently, regardless of what that other person does.

Conditional Love: A love that requires specific action or conditions in order to be maintained. For example, at its extreme, a parent who gives very conditional love would only love his child when he gets straight A’s, becomes a surgeon and has two children. The love is based on outside conditions and when they do not occur, the love is withdrawn.

Puppy Love: A childish, innocent temporary crush on someone that you don’t know well.

Maternal Love: This term usually connotes love that is nurturing, accepting and protective. In actuality this love can also be given by a father etc.

Paternal Love: This term connotes love that involves guidance and some authority. Paternal love usually prepares a child to be ready for the outside world. Again, in reality this type of love is not gender specific.

Soulmate Love: This type of love is described as a love that has survived multiple life times. Not everyone believes in this concept.

Spiritual/Divine Love: This type of love recognizes the Divine light in everyone and everything. Love is given to everyone as an act of loving God.

Love of your country or patriotism: This is love for the place you live or the place that were born. It is a type of loyalty and a special feeling of belonging that you attribute to that specific geographic location.

Self-Love: This is a positive feeling that you have about who you are and what you deserve. It often is expressed by treating yourself well, respecting yourself, wanting yourself to be happy and expecting others to respect you too.

Brotherly Love: This term connotes having a feeling of love for your neighbor, because all humanity is considered to be part of a larger family of human beings.

Tough Love: This term is used to describe a love that is expressed by setting boundaries for the good of the other person. So for example, a parent may send their teenager to rehab if he is drug addicted, even if he does not want to go. They feel that this is an act of love because it stems from a desire for their son’s ultimate good and happiness. This type of love is described as a love that has survived multiple life times. Not everyone believes in this concept.


taken from somone's blog :D



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