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| I think it's so amazing how God gave me a brother. Big Brother Yong, haha. Because with this big brother, I know where to stop and where my limits are. He stopped me from doing so much stupid stuff, yet I don't know when to listen to him and when not to.
I don't regret telling the truth. I regret not finding out more about you before telling the truth. Maybe that's why we're stuck here, in the midst of awkwardness, not knowing where to place our eyes when the time comes. What would happen if we meet face to face, will there be anywhere where we can duck our heads so that we wouldn't have to meet each others gaze?
A whole new intensity of everything. Not of hurt, but of confusion. Not knowing what to do with insecurities. Rachel, what happened to your rationality, huh. Where have you placed it?
"Give some time for it, wait"
Waiting. Waiting again. What if...
He wasn't something permissable in the first place. Nor is he beneficial. And he may have control over me. But why can't I find myself making the correct decision this time? Let go, let God?
Shucks, the heart pain. The all-too-familiar heart pain.
Yay today sat at the swing with karon, <3 Talked about so much. Hahah, helped that she was willing to share her experiences with me (:
LOVE YOU GIRL :D
Yet, a part of me wonders if you will remember my. Forget it.
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| Too much courage, maybe? "Do not awaken your love"
This outcome of uncertainty, probably unexpected.
His eyes refuse to meet mine.
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| The craziest day is coming.
This time, I get to solve my own math problem. Whatever the outcome, no regrets.
But yet, it's the first time I'm doing it, against the advice of so many.
Ahh, I'll see if he remembers. If he doesn't then I'll just let it go.
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| Before I start, let me introduce my black boyfriend. Yes, finally I found someone blacker than me.
You know how your heart beats faster when you see someone so important to you, or so you think. He would always be somewhere lingering on your mind. It always happens to me. Then he ends up liking someone else, and then you'd be left with nothing but regrets.
Rawr, I hope that doesn't happen to me again.
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| My heart raced at the sudden realization that you could be there too, at the same time. I wanted to just go over to check out if you were really there. Turned out you were. Part of me thought I was retarded.
Sheez lah, sometimes everyday just boils down to one thing. Go & sleep, forget it. I think WL's dream was really sweet. I remember I used to have such dreams about him (not WL, someone else) too, and then I'd wake up and feel this warm fuzzy feeling. Loved every moment of it. But too bad, they're all tucked away now [:
Anyway, I'm dropping my H2 Lit to H1. Too bad. I am super interested in Lit, but Lit doesn't reciprocate. How sad.
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